I woke up Tuesday, showered, kissed a still sleeping Antonia (she flew out hours later) and went to work. Antonia called to say good bye and then texted me when her plane touched the ground later.
I left work, hit the gym, grabbed Subway for dinner and went home. Ate, went for a run / walk with the dog and started to feel a little lonely. The reality that I would be alone (GASP) for THREE DAYS (what a baby I am) started to hit. I showered and settled into bed with a book that I recently purchased.
Something caught my eye and I glanced up. A note was taped on the TV:
"Press play" it read with a smiley note.
Hmmmm. Grabbing the remote I pressed play. The video started and there was a smiling and looking too cute for words Antonia on my bed. She was sitting up, much like I was now, wearing her fuzzy blue robe. Now - it took me a half hour to write this down, pausing her and there to type this out. But it's worth it:
"I'm willing to bet you're in bed early tonight" she started "so I wanted to give you a personal goodnight kiss! I just wanted to tell you how much you have meant to me in the short amount of time we've known each other. Last year when you came into my store and asked me out...I KNEW. There is something in your eyes that people can read. You're a gentle person with a good heart and I knew.
I also knew that had I said yes last year I'd be making a mistake. I had only been single for weeks at that time and I needed time. I needed time to purge bad memories from my heart. I needed time to heal and adjust. I needed to find my own inner good person, because someone else beat that person out of me. I knew that I needed to rediscover my love for myself before I could be right for anyone else.
Most of the time people need to find themselves again before feeling right and that was the case with me. There are things that never come back with self discovery. For over three years I have felt fat, disgusting. I hadn't had sex in over a year. I couldn't enjoy time alone because I repulsed myself, I had been told so much that was the way everyone saw me.
And then you came into the picture. If someone told me that I would feel good about myself again I would not have believed them. If someone told me that I would BELIEVE it when a guy showers me with compliments I would have said that he was only doing it for something in return. I can't believe how quickly things can happen and that makes me believe in a lot of things again.
I don't know that end result of us. I know where I would like it to go, but I know that you will also be the most special man in my life outside of my father. You've helped me to find myself again. You've helped me remember things that I like to do. You've allowed me to be me. You've held my hair out of my face when I was sick from drinking too much and then didn't lecture me about it. You've come to my place with McDonald's! You've reminded me how much I love to run, read and be with my friends.
You've taught me to love again. You've taught me that it's okay and that real love doesn't want for anything. You give simply because you want to give. You've made me feel like a living, breathing, beautiful, sexual woman. You've given me my body back by simply appareciating it for what it is.
Now speaking of enjoying my body, I want to show you how comfortable I am sharing with you now..."
At this point she slowly un-did the tie around her robe and let it fall to either side, completely exposing herself.
"You make me feel so full, I can't explain it" she said softly and took her breasts in her hand, pulling her nipples. "You make me feel so alive in so many ways."
She opened her leg and picked up the camcorded remote, looking at the TV and zoomed in a little. Spreading herself wide open she slowly started to run her finger up and down her slit and teasing her clit.
"I am so wet" she breathed. "Can you see how wet I am? I just think about you and turn to a goo pile..."
She slid one finger and then two into her pussy with her left hand and was stroking her clit with the other. Looking directly into the camera she whispered "take your cock out and cum with me."
I paused the tape and quickly stripped down, my heart pounding in my chest. Hitting play, the tape started.
Antonia started rubbing her clit faster and faster and breathed for me to stroke my cock fast, telling me it wasn't going to take her long and she wanted me to cum with her. I was pounding my cock at this point, my hand a blur. She gasped very loud, which is he cue that she's about to cum and then it washed over her.
Antonia is very loud when she cums. Very. The first moan is always the loudest, almost like a dull scream. Then they get more quiet, but still loud. The first time I heard this it threw me off, but now I can't help myself when I hear it. That first cum-scream came through my TV speakers and I didn't have time to pull anything on to my stomach, my first stream of cum shot onto my stomach.
On the screen Antonia was fucking herself very hard still with her fingers as her orgasm started to wind down. My own was so intense that I had a hard time focusing on the TV.
Spent, my load of cum on my stomach, Antonia was smiling on the TV with her eyes half open. She was still lightly touching herself between her legs and smiling, a very satisfied look.
"Hmmmmm, okay blue eyes. It's time to turn off this tape now. Hit stop and...um...call me!" She giggled and moved on screen to grab the camcorded remote, her generous breasts swaying under her. And then the screen was blank and she was gone.
I hit stop and picked up the phone. She answered on the first ring. "Did you cum?" she asked playfully. I told her that I had and thanked her for the tape, saying I was probably going to wear it out watching it too much while she's gone.
We spoke of the day, her trip, her plans. We wrapped up the call and she was about to hang up.
"Oh, tough guy? Um, yeah. There is a couple more hours on that tape for you. Go nuts" she giggled.