Now - for a lot of you - this is a total "so what? A lot of people have them" thing. For me? I haven't had a girlfriend, someone that I wanted to be with and only with...in years.
I am the guy that is always single. My parents even kid that I'll be the guy in the nursing home chasing the widows. Antonia is great. I mean - she's swept me off my feet.
We are trying to take things slow. We're trying to not be the couple that meets and is living together in a month. We have a lot to learn about each other. The things I do I simply love. She loves my dog. My dog loves her. That's a plus to pass the jealous as hell dog test.
The sex is nuts. I have years of rebuilding to do here and have to be careful. She hasn't been sexually active in over one year and that wasn't exactly "sexually active." She has rediscovered the power of her sexuality, or is beginning to. She hadn't masturbated in over TWO YEARS.
Can you believe that? TWO YEARS! We spoke about that over dinner, she spoke about missing it as though she was expecting me to tell her I thought it was good that she DIDN'T. My response? We left, in the middle of dinner, and went to an adult store. She was like a kid in a candy store. She picked out the big pink jelly dildo, the smaller silver vibrator and a small silver bullet thing. She was all excited that they still make them, it was her "weapon of choice" in college.
She was soooo cute that night - I could tell that she wanted to go home and have some alone time with her new toys but didn't dare bring it up. So I made up some story about wanting to read, you need to sleep in your own bed tonight (wink, wink). "You aren't threatened by the size of this thing?" she asked (holding the 14 inch jelly dildo). I smiled. "Jealous? Are you nuts? Do you know what I can do to you with that thing and my tongue? Mine isn't that big...sometimes a girl's gotta eat!"
Needless to say, she's had some good solo times with her new toys. We've also entered them into our own play. She's never been fucked with a dildo with someone's tongue on her clit at the same time... we had to do something about that!
Basically what she wants, she gets. The back room at her store? Check. My desk at work after everyone goes home? Check. My car in the back of Wal-Mart? Check. Dressing room at the Gap? Check. 2am? Check. 11pm? Check.
8 times last Sunday? Check x 8. I want her to explore everything that comes into her head and feel that I'm completely behind that.
How can I lose in this? I've received more oral sex in the past week that I have in forever.
She sends me emails about the things she wants to do. The "meet me at my store at 10 and wait for people to leave. I want to fuck you on the counter." That was a good one. The one today?
"Have you ever had anal sex?"
LOL. Back door time!