I have made a command decision. I’m never going to mention certain aspects in this diary of things that do not belong in here. I started this diary as one that I could freely talk about my sexual exploits from the past. Not so much for anyone to read, quite to the contrary I’m surprised that there is any market for a sex diary authored by a guy. My experiences are that diaries written by girls that include this information do quite well, whereas ones by guys usually fall by the wayside.

I began to have an internal conflict – I should show my human side. Problem is this: I started this diary for myself. I had the urge to document things that I would think about. It started with the want / need to document the same sex experiences. Things about me that I generally couldn’t be open with a lot of people about. Some people that know me would be flat out shocked at some of that stuff.

Skye came around and I had a brief moment where I detached in this forum from what my goals are. I don’t want to sit with a friend over drinks and talk about my sexual exploits, but I have that desire to get them out. So – this is that forum.

Certain sides of feelings need to be present, because no matter of one or none reads this – I am more than a walking penis that ejaculates. It’s important to discuss how situations make / made me feel. But to internally question why I’m feeling one way, or justifying my actions in another,

I also don’t like to leave a story half told. So I will sum up and close the book on Skye as this: I have re-dedicated myself to not allowing anything that gets in the way pf my beliefs and philosophy. If she were ready to not date, she would. If I were ready to focus on one person, I would.

Skye’s date could not have been that great because my phone rang that night at 11:30. Booty call. I digress. That night I put a little bit more effort into fucking her. I slapped her ass a little harder, I was a little meaner, I was a little less tender, I bit a little harder, and I left a handprint or two on her inner thigh and ass cheek. She loved it. I was kneeling next to her head and she was sucking my cock, her lying on her back and I was next to her on the bed. My fingers (four of them) roughly fucking her pussy. I was half tempted to money shot on her face at that time. I jokingly told her that after I came in her mouth and she laughed, saying I should have.

And then she smiled and said, “if I had known that all I need to do to get a night of rough sex is go on a date, I would have done that sooner.”